i hate seeing him like this. so quiet and tired and just not laughing cuz he said it hurts too. i know he’s only gonna be in the hospital for a week but i miss him. i miss like hearing that he loves me and him sounding like he actually means it. i don’t wanna feel like i’m losing him. i mean, i could’ve lost him if they didn’t do the surgery any sooner. his appendix bursted and there was a bunch of puss and they had to get all of the poison out. if it would’ve spread anymore it would’ve gone throughout his body and he could’ve eventually died. it makes me realize how in love with him i am and how greatful i am to have him. i’ve helped him with anything he needs and i’ve been to the hospital like everyday this week. i miss him tweeting about how much he loves me every once in a while and i miss him making me laugh and whispering in my ear and making me laugh cuz it gives me chills and us just fooling around laughing 24/7. and being able to kiss him without hurting him. it’s hard for him to breathe when i try to kiss him now :/ i don’t care if people think i’m dramatic cuz i really don’t give a fuck. i just want my will back. i miss him. i miss you and i love you more than anything. god. it’s only been 5 days and like 5 more to go. jeez. i am crazy. no i just love him too much to see him hurt and now he can’t go on his new york trip that he wants soo badly. he’s so upset. you can just tell. i’ve cried myself to sleep everyday this week. i love you babe. get betttttterrrrrrrrrrrrrr! please<3 i need you.
(Source: inblack-and-white)
